I've been away

It's been a while since I've had a new posting. Because of our financial circumstances, I've only been taking half of my anti-depressants. I break the pills down the middle and that way I can stretch them for 2 months. Half is better than none at all. Even still, sometimes my mind gets cloudy and I have to fight to form a clear thought. I've been fighting off some really vicious writers block. The whole and honest truth is; I'm exactly one missed prescription away from being one of those people walking around with a wool coat on in the summertime and mumbling to themselves. The last few weeks the highlight of my day has been about 8:30 pm, when I can take a hand full of sleeping pills with a Xanax XR back and wait for the sweet relief of drowsiness to envelope me. When I get cloudy, it feels like being held underwater and now I'm finally able to come up for air. My mind starts to clear up and not feel as foggy and I don't have to take my Xanax XR. I still have to take the sleeping pills cause I'm a hopeless insomniac and always take my anti-depressants because, well me not taking that wouldn't be good at all. I also take my regular 1 mg Xanax. The fact that the doctor prescribed me 1 whole mg says a lot. 40% of the time I have to take half of one of those to leave the house. I have anxiety attacks. I want to say a really sarcastic Thanks to my Wilson genes. Hughes', don't feel left out, I wanna kick a shout out to y'all too for giving the me the violent impulses I have to fight off so regularly. I'm back y'all!!